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Akira Kurusu ([personal profile] theshowsover) wrote2021-02-05 10:43 am
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Mid-March

[personal profile] benishoga 2021-03-24 07:02 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Since reverting to his normal human body and returning to their residence, Yusuke has spent most of his time either in his room or out of the house. While his outward attitude has remained neutral, his discomfort with what happened is crystal clear from his avoidant behavior - avoiding the topic with Akira and turning down invitations to spend time together.

But, a few days into the Rag'nbogi festival, Yusuke comes home late one night, covered in various colors of powder and paint. He walks straight to his room like normal, but a few minutes later, he sends a message to Akira's mobile device.
]

Akira... Are you busy at the moment?
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-03-28 10:57 pm (UTC)(link)
If possible, I would like to speak with you privately. I'm sorry to interrupt your enjoyment of the festival, but could you return home briefly?
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-03-29 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ Yusuke is sitting on the couch, barefoot, his hands folded loosely in his lap. He's changed into clean clothing, but he washed up hastily - there's still evidence of power dusting in his hair and paint smudged on his face.

When the door opens, his head snaps up, and he watches him enter silently. Alright... better late than never.
]

Welcome back. Thank you, for returning. [ he hesitates briefly before motioning to the couch beside him. ] Akira... unless you need to do anything first, please, take a seat.

[ Despite how softly he's speaking, Yusuke looks good compared to the last few weeks. There's color in his face and he isn't shying away from looking Akira in the eye. ]
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-03-29 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
[ Yusuke watches him sit. When he ultimately settles, only for them to nearly be touching, Yusuke's gaze idles on the gap between their knees as he remembers the night they transformed. Akira's question forces him to look up again. ]

... Yes, I am. [ nod. ] Or, I should say, I'm doing far better now than I was.

[ But as much as Yusuke could tell him how he's been for the past month, he's eager to get to the point. After a deep breath, he holds a hand out to Akira. ]

I want to apologize for what happened last month, on that night. While I know it wasn't within our control, I still feel responsible for my own actions to some degree. And... I'm sorry for being so distant towards you since then. It was cowardly.
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-04-02 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Yusuke is just the opposite - terrible at ignoring his emotions. If there's any maladaptive thought process he excels at, it's denial, and he's been doing his best to stop that for months now.

In this case, while it did take a few weeks, he is finally putting his emotions out there where they can't be ignored anymore.
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...Thank you. [ Akira's answer is short and simple, but the warm, honeylike glow between their hands and the faint notion of forgiveness that Yusuke senses in its wake says more than any number of words could. His expression softens into a smile and he sighs deeply again, but this time, relieved.

That isn't everything, though. Yusuke has his own questions. He squeezes Akira's hand gently and leans back against the couch.
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After I left, were you alright? What did you do?
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-04-11 01:27 am (UTC)(link)
[ That is - an unexpected answer. Yusuke blinks, somewhat taken aback at the mere thought that Akira could have gone through something similar to him. Nothing had given him that impression, although admittedly, he's kept to himself until now. How selfish of him...! If only he'd known that his dear friend might need some support of his own! ]

What happened?

[ Yusuke asks gently, his voice low and soft. Now that the surprise has passed, he realizes that this may not be so strange at all. Akira has had a lot of practice keeping his struggles to himself. Yusuke looked away and denied the things he saw in order to cope in those situations... Akira chose to simply say nothing and keep wearing a calm facade instead.

But neither of them are alone anymore. Yusuke is grateful every day for that! If there's anything he can do for Akira, he's determined to do it.
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...If you need to, you can tell me. No matter what happened.
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-04-14 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ Yusuke listens quietly, no emotion more severe than his preexisting concern rising to his face. When Akira goes quiet, seemingly more interested in his glasses than providing any further details, he knows he's done and those details aren't going to come. He looks away thoughtfully, to take any pressure off his friend, and to take a moment to choose his words. ]

...I did largely the same sort of thing. Essentially the exact same. [ He hadn't planned on admitting that so explicitly to Akira, especially not so quickly, but it clearly needed to be said now. Yusuke grasps his hand firmly, dead set on keeping the physical bridge between them intact. ]

Do you feel ashamed?

[ When he asks, he keeps his eyes downward as to not make to question too confrontational, and adds, ] I did. For weeks. I thought myself no better than the people whose hearts we change.

[ He can hardly imagine how Akira must feel, considering his history. ]
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-04-19 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
Yes.

[ That's the same conclusion that Makoto helped Yusuke come to, that gave him the courage to talk to Akira again. Without any doubt, he should have spoken to Akira about this sooner.

But, he has his chance now to help him.
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When that difference occurred to me, it was like a eureka moment. [ With a shake of his head, he looks back up at Akira, hoping he'll meet his eyes. ] Madarame committed deplorable acts. He trampled dreams, destroyed lives... let my mother die, in the name of nothing more than financial gain! The only second thoughts he gave to his actions were to concoct excuses and justifications.

[ Despite all the doubts Yusuke still has about himself and the world, he's never doubted his fundamental difference from Madarame. When he thought about it, that difference is moral, ethical, emotional... something that speaks to one's soul and character. What Makoto said then, and what Akira said just now, is exactly the truth. ]

You're nothing like that, Akira. You mustn't punish yourself.
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[personal profile] benishoga 2021-04-24 10:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Yusuke leans forward and clasps his other hand over Akira's knuckles and fingers. Although it's a bit strange to admit it to himself, it feels wonderful to hear Akira thank him. All of this feels wonderful: cradling his hand, meeting his determined gaze, speaking his honest thoughts and providing some comfort to the one he could always rely on to do the same for him.

The subtle sense of peace and pleasure warming his body is a giveaway that Manna is influencing him right now, but... after the terrible circumstances their other experience with Synchrony together occurred under so far, this is a substantial upgrade.
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Akira...

[ Should he bring it up? Yusuke closes his eyes, deliberating. On one hand, he's grateful it didn't go as far with Akira as it regrettably did with some others he encountered while he was feral. On the other... if they really must go through with such activities in this place... ]

...In the future, if you need to Synchronize with anyone, you can ask me. I will be happy to assist you. [ He opens his eyes to look to Akira again, a quiet calm settling on his features. ] The time we spent embracing each other after we transformed... I enjoyed it. If you have any doubts about whether it made me uncomfortable, there's no need.
izanyagi: (THE SHIT IS THIS)

text; un; purrsuing

[personal profile] izanyagi 2021-04-29 08:50 am (UTC)(link)
Hey.

I need to show you something. I'd rather do it in person, if that's alright. It has something to do with a memory trinket I got this month.
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[personal profile] izanyagi 2021-04-30 10:55 pm (UTC)(link)
My house. I'll send you the coordinates.

[A mansion is more like it, found in the rich district. It's way too large for him and this may be why he needs some company in it, even if it's just for an hour or two. He'll wait for Akira doing what he does best - stress baking. There might be a large amount of Japanese-inspired foods by the time the other arrives.]
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[personal profile] izanyagi 2021-04-30 11:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[He does look a little surprised to see Akira, so probably not right now. It's still hard getting used to something this big, considering he's lived in various small apartments with his parents. His uncle's house was probably the biggest place he'd been in.]

Hey. I'm in the kitchen.

[As if somehow the baking smells hadn't been a clue. Akira will find him there sitting on the end of a kitchen table, drinks and food laid out along with a fancy little golden compact mirror.]

I hope I didn't make it sound ominous...it's just...something really strange happened when I tried to recall some memories.
benishoga: (34)

rly sorry for the wait - i'm ok to either drop or continue, up to you!

[personal profile] benishoga 2021-05-11 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes, I feel the same way. Especially if we must go through with it anyway.

[ Yusuke's quiet calm wavers only slightly at the offer of a hug, with his eyebrows lifting in consideration. He flashes back to that day in January, months ago, when he poured his heart out to Akira in his dormitory bedroom about Maruki revealing the ugly, shameful truth - that he isn't over Madarame, and still wished for a happy, loving relationship with him, deep down. He'd wanted to hug him so badly back then, but didn't have the courage to ask permission, nor do so without permission.

Yusuke looks away, unable to hide the sheepish smile creeping onto his face. He lets go of Akira's hands, tentatively ready to open his arms and accept a hug.
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Yes, I would.

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